Becalmed

All my children sleep safe tonight
She injected the silent night
She’s the needle in my eye
She takes me by surprise

But when she takes me
It feels so right

We burned our dead in the field
Watched the flames rise above our heads
She’s the end
I’ve seen it in my dreams

When night came, she threw herself into that pyre
Her body was taken by the fire
She’s the end

I woke up in the stillness
No sound
Nothing for miles around
And no breeze
To stir these auburn leaves
In these lifeless trees

I wandered for a time
Trying to find some passion
But none was to be found
And now here I lie
A heart becalmed
After a storm

The distant trickle of a waterfall
Wakes me from my sleep
I allow myself to hope

Caricatures

They’re laughing at me
Caricatures
I look at myself in the mirror
And I’m evil
I am ill
Quarantined to my bed

I inhabit a different plane
Where Sunday doesn’t exist
Or it lost its meaning
And I forgot who I am

I don’t feel the same here
Everything is different
I imagine myself as someone else
I’m watching my failures

They’re laughing at me
Caricatures
I look at myself in the mirror
And I can’t remember why
I would want to do anything at all

Turn your dark cartoon face away
It’s all within me

Maenad

I thought I saw you
Again and again and again
But you weren’t there
Your face on all these strangers
And the walls were a maze
Awake and asleep at the same time
But I managed to find my way
Outside

You said don’t worry
Relax
And everything came into focus
My head broke through the surface
And I could breathe again
I was free

I forgot I had a body
Again and again and again
But it was there
Moving with all these strangers
And my mind was amazed
Awake and asleep at the same time
So I switched off and enjoyed
The ride

Fog

Propped up in a taxi
Face against the glass
Some kind of dark gravity
Weighing me down
A dense fog
Clouding my mind

I’m coming down to see you
But I don’t know what state I’ll be in
I’ve got my feet on the ground
Whether I like it or not
A river rushing backwards in my chest
Pulling me back down to earth

I’m so tired
But I can’t sleep
Every time I close my eyes
It’s like I’m still awake
All I can see is your face

A river rushing backwards in my chest
Pulling me back down to earth